My Goliaths

I have always enjoyed reading any book written by Max Lucado. He's always written it straight forward and to the point. The imagery and the word choice he uses just lifts the words right off of the page. Currently, I am reading "facing Your Giants". I am only in the 3rd chapter, but I am relating to a lot of the information already.....


The book starts out by sharing the story of David & Goliath. Many of you have probably heard the story a million times. It uses this same imagery about how big Goliath was and how meek of a young lad that David was. Either way, David slayed Goliath with a pebble....something so small, yet he defeated "his Goliath". 


Max Lucado states in his book "First thoughts of the morning, last worry of the night--- your Goliath dominates your day and infiltrates your joy" - this is a Goliath. This is exactly how I feel my life cycles through each day. My "Goliaths" just dominate my existence each day. I struggle with peace and happiness on a daily basis and I can't do it anymore. 


What are my Goliaths? What blocks me from seeing life in a positive manner? I feel like that there are so many Goliaths in my life, that it consumes by being each day. It affects my relationship with my husband, my "children", my friends, my job and my future. It consumes me so much that I am not able to focus and constantly (as a friend puts it) - "stuck in a rut". I get so frustrated in this rut. 


The Goliaths in my life:

• Sexual abuse from the past
• Intimacy with my husband
• Having my own child
• Relationships with my family
• Depression & Suicidal thoughts
• Anger
• a return to substance abuse
• obtaining work to situate our finances
• Dwelling on the past

These Goliaths consume me each day...and I am tired.