Where's God
facing the long road ahead
turning my back
trying hard not to look behind
where my family has left once again
leaving me with friends
who don't understand
Where's God.....?
Looking helplessly around my surroundings
I see no one
I hear not a sound
nothing inside that I feel
Still, where is God....?
The wounds heal, they say
but, when?
When can I walk ahead?
When can I stop turning back?
When will the pain stop hurting...
When will God help me?
death is easier than dealing with the pain,
it's easier to just go insane
its easier to just turn away
away from the goodness
away from the sun and the stars
put the mask on
so everyone can see
maybe, just maybe, those so-called friends will leave.
Why God, why, why don't you just let me die?
no one listens,
no one cares....no even God
if they did
why weren't they there
no one stopped the pain
things happen they say
they also say to forget it
I can't
it happened...
Live with it
I have too....
I can't love
and I can't be loved
why put faith and trust into anything or anyone
Promises are broken
hearts are crushed again
and even greater pain is added to the
already blazing fire
why live?
just so I could be hurt,
yet another time?
why bother?
I can't do it anymore...
no more pain
no more broken promises
no more sun....
4-24-94
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